9:58 a.m. - 2007-05-27
brandnubian.
yet another long one. and here we are
again floating diary log 2007. wow how
things have changed or are atleast in
some process of change again. i'm
better better now. but now when i say
it i really mean it. each time i say
it i feel it more and more. i feel
better not because i feel i look more
stable or "better" in the eyes of
others. i don't care as much about
that as i have before. i believe i've
done so much catching up with myself
these last few months in hibernation/
isolation it's rediculous. so let's
back up. well for starters i'm pretty
sure i've been moving in out of some
weird funk for the last few years.
maybe starting in portland ( or the
very end of the ashley thing) and then
climaxing and totally bursting in the
old NC. the conclusion i've come to
thus far is thank fucking g.o.d.
because that experience was so vitally
important to what i've going through
now. i don't know if going back
through it all really matter. it's a
lot to put into words so i'll just
have to express the parts in another
entry.
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