2:18 a.m. - 2008-11-13
ordinary world.
i've been thinking alot these days about
steps and stones and foundations and moves and next moves and non moves. not moving. not making. or making/taking. and shunting. surrendering. subsequently.
my main thoughts revolve around the same general things they always do.
i think about chances and fate and faith. i think about all of the above.
i've been thinking about relationships and what they evolve into and the inevitabiliy and eventual. and the other side of things. is everyone always disappointed or pleasantly surprised?
are you being a little too hard on her? or are you just not being as honest with yourself? i don't think it is that easy but i do think a large part of this is on you. maybe not alone but sometimes you seem. unsatisfied. yet still so under your breath. but who's to say where that lies. and where you go from here?
what is it to rush into it. what is it to waite. what is it to withold. or not hold back. we plot. and build. for something?
i might start to own it. i may just take it away.
