1:31 p.m. - 2008-11-13
cried again at work today.
not again. but again. moments building to
another pep talk. fuck/ i realized
something really important a minute ago
and i have exactly ten minutes to say
what i have to say. i have this tendency
to think i can look at something..
anything..like a puzzle and have it all
worked out. atleast the intimate
important essence of the moment and maybe
i do but today i realized something just
as vitally important. it does not stop
there. it is not good enough to know
where your going. or to choose the
right thing. to have the perfect
girlfriend or possess the right gadget
cause you know it fits that place you are working towards. but fuck..you got to work towards it..? you got to work with it..? it just does not stop there does it? cus if if did what the fuck good would it do? that perfectly good would go to waste with what to show for it? i woke up with the thought today that i would no be the shadow of myself anymore. but i have also resisted the fact that that requires some work. of which now i must go.
